:X :/ :\ :| :) :} :] :3 :D ;D

JAE IS LIKE IN EIGHT DAYS

2011-01-02T20:25:00.001+08:00

GOD BLESS MEEEE!:)

forever 21

2011-01-01T23:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, had a very very very memorable day with Jiaqiu, Katricia and Xueci!

Celebrated Jiaqiu's birthday and count-ed down for 2011!

:D hope everybody upload the photos soon heh!

i wished it could be like this every year!

2010 ended in a somewhat nice way even though it wasn't a smooth year for me.

right now, i'm looking forward to all the good things in 2011!

i want to be a less stressful and much more happy girl!

SAY YAYE TO THE WORLD!

oh yah, and i super love this top/dress from forever 21!:D

what have i taught you? can you teach me them?

2010-12-26T14:16:00.002+08:00

Have i once helped you through your darkest period or advised you once?

Can you teach me what you have learnt from me?

I once wrote to somebody,

"Your life is not a movie, you can't be 17 again like the character played by Zac Efron."

Yet, this is my life as i am 17.

New shoes from cotton on! (rubi)

2010-12-21T22:40:00.003+08:00

I super love my new wedges:] and i think i am 1.8m tall now!

it's only at $10 because of sale!

Chinneh also bought two pairs of pumps for $30.

hais, Huimin didn't get any cause the one she like is not on sale!D:

i hope it goes on sale real soon!!!!

猪朋狗友? 知己好伴？

2010-12-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

古文：“进朱者赤，进墨者黑。”
如果这句话是百分之一百准确的话，那么，你身边的朋友就犹如是你在一面镜子中的倒影。

其实，我自己也知道对于交友，自己并没有付出得那么多。所以，这有可能是我现在的回报吧。。。？

为什么？
为什么？
为什么？

突然好想怪他们，因为觉得被遗弃。但是后来想了一想，其实还不是自己一再由一次的拒绝他们吗？
我不能来赖谁啊。还不是我自找的。笨蛋。

一个巴掌拍不响。这也不单单是我的责任吧。

New hobby.:D

2010-12-20T23:12:00.002+08:00

My new hobby:D

oovoo rockssss!

2010-12-19T01:18:00.002+08:00

oovoo rockssss!

Peng Yu Yan:)

2010-12-18T00:34:00.003+08:00

Boy, he is so hot!:D

studying!

2010-09-26T22:13:00.000+08:00

Studied with Kuanlin at Mac on Sat!

Gossips <3>

HAHA! love to talk to her!

I got my pay!

2010-09-23T11:49:00.001+08:00

I got my pay! like finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:D

Hajimemashite. Watashi wa Varina. Douzo yoroshiku!

2010-09-18T20:05:00.003+08:00

dreams i don't want to admit.

2010-09-16T22:15:00.003+08:00

i had a real stupid dream today.

about the you whom i used to message every single day back in secondary school and staying up late just to wait for your reply.

every single time something happened to me, you would be one of the first few on my list whom i will tell you and i just can't stop bothering you about silly little minor things.

you are the friend that i always spend so much time trying to figure out what i should do for you on your birthday or what type of presents you would like.

but ever since the day i quit jc, you didn't even send a single message to me on your own accord to merely say hi or ask about my well-being.

the thought just. disappoint me.

and to think that i dreamt about you so much that i don't want to lose you.

and i kept crying and crying.

walao. can you make yourself make me feel that you are worthed crying for?

shit you. you know i love you so much yet you do this to me.

that's why people say some things just cant be reciprocated no matter how much you have tried or contributed. right, right?

if you see this post, IF IF IF, though i don't think you ever will, cause you have never even visited my blog, call me up and say you love me and ask for forgiveness MUAHAHHAHAA.

dream on Varina, dream on :/

Wasted

2010-09-16T17:55:00.003+08:00

Here, people are given so many chances yet they repeat the same mistakes over and over again. Why? ):

Today, knew what happened to my juniors during these few years. It really saddens me as to how much their attitude have worsened, even though i'm not even a close senior or friend. Why does the cycle keeps repeating itself? I find it so.. upset that most teenage delinquency acts happens to children from poor families.

PUDDING THE QUEEEN

2010-09-15T22:49:00.003+08:00

my pudding is damn cute.

seeeeee she face her back towards me when she's angry or wants my attention:D

see? my dear girl wait for me to play w her until she sian alr. so kawaii!

okay, shall play w her soon!

btw, i love the new default blog template!

i love my job tooo!<3

2010-08-16T16:20:00.001+08:00

i fucking hate hiccups.

hiccups are like stalkers.

stalkers go to hell.

2010-08-07T19:16:00.000+08:00

hellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllo.
life is about.
having fun.
and don't care who you are.

haha. like real.
but i like it!( M1) :D

Honey

2010-06-09T14:29:00.001+08:00

Honey bunny died.
i hope she can reincarnate to be someone as lovely as she was.
thank you for being there to accompany me when i need you.

rest in peace.

2010-06-02T20:52:00.001+08:00

If a tree falls in a the woods and nobody is around to hear it, does it make a sound?

2010-05-30T21:58:00.000+08:00

my parents don't deserve all these.

i should preserve my comand of language, no. my brain.

2010-05-25T21:59:00.003+08:00

Hello dear blog, I think I should try to blog in ~~perfect~~ proper English from now onwards.

Well, let's see how long i can last this time. I it's hope long enough to hold my statement.

Today, i went out with Edna. Plan: go back to Yishun Town to visit the teachers.
By right, i should meet meet Edna at Yishun MRT Station by 12.10pm.
In the end, as usual stepped out of house at 12pm. I guess I have to wind my clock faster by 30 minutes instead. Hmm.. Maybe by then I will learn the virtue to be on time. Oh, what an irresponsible statement I have made. I should just admit that I didn't put in enough effort to kick my bad habit away.

Okay, I took the route which i have always taken - the one behind Jiemin (JPS!)
Guess what? Again. I nearly crossed into a funeral parade.
In effort to keep my sanity and to convince myself to be optimistic, i can only say that i have superbly( does this word exist?) good luck. How many people in the world would have such luck to could have run into something like that by coincidence, twice in a month?
Actually, that's not the main point.
Main point is, i met Edna at around 12.3opm. -.-'
Always made her wait for me. I am such a sucker.

Ate Fresh at Subway, crazy! i could have bought three plates of chicken rice in Chong Pang and ordered a cup of Milo Peng. I'm so not going to eat there again.
Went back to school, but sadly teachers went home early because it was post-exams week.
So, i psychoed Edna to play pool with me at Safra. HA, i can't play pool without her since i don't have the member card. EDNA ROCKS ~~BIG TIME~~ ALL THE TIME.
Wah, you should have seen the way we played. We never even completed one full round.

After pooling went arcade-ing. Spot the difference! Super fun with Edna around. She has penetrative eyes. (okay. i know this doesn't make sense since there's no link between penetrating the machine to spot the difference)

Fun day.
After that, we went to explore the new hospital just at the front of safra.
i forgot to jot down the name though. it's huge and it looks like a resort.
We went to eat peng gan kaya toast in foodfare.
the hospital is pretty and classy. nice.
we got a feeling that TTS hospital will be ranked under it soon.
bought gummy bears for sister, hope she likes it.

( Okay, random information from the television: youngest teenage to have tatoo in singapore: 11 years old. SEE, high education and all in singapore.)

Terrible past.
why did i even criticise her when she's got depression and all.
everyday when i see her at home, i complain that she doesn't even make the effort to find a job.
now, i see why it took such a long time for her to come out from the shell.
finding a job is not as easy as reading classified off the page of Straits Times.

to have improvement itself is to start improving.

2010-05-24T22:33:00.003+08:00

hello world.
my english have deteriorated to levels i've just seen.
i must start blogging again.
reset to zero and start afresh.

hollow.

2010-05-16T17:02:00.001+08:00

i have a strange feeling everytime i hear this song.

2010-05-14T22:33:00.003+08:00

she blinked at me, then took in a deep breathe and told me a story.
it was a story about a little girl, a little girl who is perfectly normal, just as ordinary as any other child can be.
excpet for the part that she has a thining which somebody else didn't have.
she often wondered what are the things she have to do when she grow up, the wonders of the world. what do she truly like or dislike? what ambitions should she have and how she can contribute to the world. for years, she thought and thought and thought.

2010-05-14T00:52:00.002+08:00

Varina is fucking crazy.

yes, crazier than before.
crazier than she never knew she was.

2010-05-12T08:18:00.000+08:00

i owe people explanations.
how do i put it in words?

2010-05-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

never in my life has making a decision so difficult.
usually, i would have made a decision and stuck to that choice.
why? why has studying become a problem in my life now?
i fear going to school everyday and have been crying non-stop.
why do i cry ? why do i feel terrible ?
part of me is shutting the world towards gaining knowledge away. reason being? i suddenly lost the interest and motivation.
everybody is so supportive of me, my family, friends, teachers and all.
i feel i have let them down. for trying to give up, or has already given up.
it's such a pain to make a decision.
the fear it behind every choice, is about the future it takes you to.

giving up, takes a lot of courage, so much more to have to bear to part with what you have built up earlier on.
why? even though this may seem as a minor problem in life, studies, compared to losing a job or a life, is so much more midocre as they are.
because all along i thought the only talent i had was studying and being hardworking.
and suddenly it becomes a torture. and the torture is that my mind can't turn the way it is to make me think in the right way.

2010-04-27T18:00:00.001+08:00

因为太怕失去，所以抓得太紧，不敢松开。
心要如何快乐起来？

2010-04-25T10:42:00.000+08:00

mental struggle
helplessness and actuality
the list goes on,

where is the ending? what is it becoming to?

2010-04-25T10:09:00.000+08:00

constant fear.

i love mum.

2010-04-22T00:45:00.002+08:00

mummy sent me a msg today telling me how much she loves me.
wanted to cry like shit.

2010-04-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

appreciation.

i am fortunate.

2010-04-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

and that's all part of giving someone a piece of your _____.
they ended up taking a whole chunk of your mind and reserving it all for themselves.

my throat is burning.

why did it turn out like that?
i don't know what you think that's why i can't relate to you what i think.
it's not a game nor it is a joke.

runaway and we will be left w bruises.

tapping emotions.

2010-04-16T00:35:00.003+08:00

to kat: yes, i love you too and i treat you like me family[:

yes, how do you feel for people? idk? maybe god gave me an extra nerve which can sense people's feelings and transfer theirs into my own ones.

whywhy? i'm confused about so many things nowadays.

why? when you're feeling so down and stressed yet you're the one who ask people not to worry for you and cheer up? why why? tell me why? okay, actually you can don't tell me why cause actually i know why. cause you're super great and doesn't want people to worry about you.

:/ there seem to be so much things you're hiding from me oh i'm not like trying to get anyth out of you because i believe that when the time comes, you will reveal everyth to me just like you've promised and yes i'm just curious about it so yeah if you read this please forget about it cause yeah forget about it.

oh dear. i sound like i just cracked a joke.

no okay actuallly i just want to tell you, since i can't help you academically wise cause i believe you are soooooooooo smart but you can always confide in me about your problems cause i can help you in that way. pleasse, don't hide toooo much of your feelings away okayy? you are human too and you can't just keep it to yourself, it's sooo terrible well thats what i feel when i keep things to myself and yes i cry a lot, a lot, a lot. im not encouraging you to cry but yes if you ever need a cry i believe my shoulders are tall enough for you to lie on.

2010-04-14T22:29:00.001+08:00

i felt his emotion through his words.

the feeling of insecurity.

2010-04-11T12:41:00.001+08:00

i want to be stonger.
and stop crying.

gratefulness.

2010-04-05T22:11:00.002+08:00

i love my family.
how much my parents sacrificed for me, not expecting anything back in return except for my peace and safety.
and doing their best to provide the best for me even if their ability is restricted.

i love my friends.
for standing by me no matter rain or shine, sharing fun and laughter, peace and joy, sadness and woes.

i love my god.
the one i search for, for a peaceful mind.

if you call it reflection.

2010-03-25T21:12:00.004+08:00

if you believe, will you hold on to something dear to you? for me, i will.
since you started it this way, i will answer you this way too.

i just want to let you know, i came to this school mostly because of you.
i want to let you know, that you made an impact in my life, that you are an important friend.

"Is it too much to ask for a friend's care and concern?
Doesn't it sound like an irony that we study in the same school, go to school together almost everyday but we don't talk.
Isn't it the case that friends will be there for you if you need them"

isn't this the same case for me???
i also felt the way you feel.

what if i haven't seen your blog? i think we will continue drifting apart.
keeping silent and bottling your feelings will never get you anywhere.
this is not the first time i said it right? i'm not trying to quarrel, i just want to reason it out.
the way you wrote on your blog really stabbed at my heart. it's like you're blaming us for not going after you.

friends: care and concern for you = care and concern to them back.

when we tried talking to you, have you thought about the attitude that you used to reply us?

have you tried reaching out? friendship is a two-way thing.

you really cannot expect people to always reach out to you.

people won't always go to you. sometimes you have to go to them.

sometimes you just have to reach out a little bit and you will get the response you want.

if you think it is important, we will never drift apart.

i think it is important.

i have never give up, we have never given up.

noody wants to make your life hard.
because we know just how screwed our life had been.

have you have really made an effort to maintain the friendship by reaching out and pulling it back.
what i see now is walking away and pushing it away,
figuring out why did this happen, why must they make me feel abandoned, but not realising that you did not take any actions to clarify things and piece it back.

fight for dignity.

2010-03-23T23:24:00.003+08:00

remember the pain.

i can overcome it! and yeah, i should stop believeing what i own today is the result of pure luck. i earned my way here and i get 4 jabs for one reason. it won't be as worse as before.

and boy, i'm sorry.

physics

2010-03-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

i was just telling Katricia two days ago that blogging is not meant for ranting.
yet look at myself, isn't this what i have been doing for a long time? -.-'

i must overcome physics. it is not that hard. i just have to open my eyes bigger and sub in the value.
i must overcome physics. it is not that hard. i just have to open my eyes bigger and sub in the value.
i must overcome physics. it is not that hard. i just have to open my eyes bigger and sub in the value.
i must overcome physics. it is not that hard. i just have to open my eyes bigger and sub in the value.
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i must overcome physics. it is not that hard. i just have to open my eyes bigger and sub in the value.
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my blog is super dead!

2010-03-21T21:57:00.003+08:00

so i'm here in attempt to revive it:)

" i dream of being a free soul, travelling around the world with my lover with a great camera. "

that would be so romantic right?

slack day!

2010-03-11T22:43:00.002+08:00

omg, have been slacking a lot lately.

I LVE MINXIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA TTM!
my loyal blogger fan, LOLOLOLOL.
i like nvr even check your blog oneT.T feel so bad.
nvm, you know i love you can alr right, right?????!!! :DDDDD

I MISS DINN GWEN HILLARY AND JOWIN THEY ALL LAH!
my conclusion:
no dinn = no quarrels = less fun. LOLS.

attachment.

2010-03-08T20:20:00.002+08:00

how much i feel like crying now.
i just wished she was here, right by my side.
i miss her so much now that i've come to realised that w/o her, i'm really not okay):

she will always allow me to rely on her, no matter what.
and i know she'll always be by my side no matter what happens.
i just wished she would be here now, by my side, telling me it's okay and assuring me to stay clam.
how many people on earth are there that are like her?
there is but i don't think i will meet any sooner yet.

i used to complain so much about her nagging and complaints but now, i've started missing them too):
it's like i lost a support.
she will still support me i know,
but just not around me as much as before.

how i wish i can rely on somebody in school nowadays, somebody like her):

school's officially started

2010-02-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

man oh man. i'm like blogging in super short notes!
school is officially starting tomorrow!
gonna be the first day to wear full uniform.

there's p.e tmr!D:
in class 10171!
got to know new friends again(:

zz.
however, i can't deny sometimes it's really a hard getting to know somebody all over.
yawns tired):

birthday coming soon!:D

* haven't start writing letters)):<

like a wall again.

2010-02-07T15:03:00.002+08:00

nobody i talk to seems to reply on msn.
i wonder why.

fever and missing tutorials):

2010-02-05T19:29:00.002+08:00

i hate being sick!
the fact that i'ld miss out in almost everything in school and especially lecturesD:<

heng mon is disk profiling. ( actually idk what is that loh)
which means i have one day to catch up with the explanation and stuff(:
uhhhhhhhhhhh. class 1017, have to make new friends again.
oh my oh my oh my!
hope i have great classmates like my ogms from connor 5!;D

ny day 3!

2010-02-01T21:33:00.001+08:00

lol. i think my group's super funny and lame!;D

tmr disco night!

nanyang jc OG!

2010-01-30T21:17:00.001+08:00

orientation day two!
got to know almost everyone in connor5!(:
it was BOOMS!

cheered and played like a siao char boh!
i love NYJC!

and maybe i will revived the blog when i have more time and am less lazy:D

evil itch!

2010-01-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

the itch has found me since prelims and it's almost four months now.

i took abt 4 injections and ate plenty of medicine.
but all the doctors can only reply me a 'wait'.

can anybody understand the feeling?
i rathered i got hurt physically than feeling the itch you know?
at least pain and external sufferings might be bearable or numb over the time but you can't control the fucking itch!

2010

2010-01-03T12:41:00.000+08:00

there is no secret to be happy!

2009-12-22T22:45:00.002+08:00

omfg.
no life.
i tried to sign in blogger, msn and hotmail and guess what?
i FORGOT my password.
heng i finally got my passwords after much combinations. phew -.-'

AVRIL LAVIGNE: CANNON!
i want to buy lah.

Joy didn't bring me joy

2009-12-16T11:57:00.001+08:00

:<

walaowhey.
Joy is supposed to bring joy to people right?
but he hanged so many times le lah!
havent even reach a month yet
):

growing money.

2009-11-24T10:57:00.003+08:00

HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
i know it's after Osssssssssssssssssssssssssssssi should be relaxing right now.
BUT NO!
i have already started working.
ahahahaahahah.
since i don't have that much money to go around to shop and spend, i shall go earn some before i can really play like siao.

will not touch my blog soon. byeeeeeee.

saw this very cute bunny:3

2009-11-10T16:08:00.001+08:00

．．．．．踩．．．．．．．．踩．．．．．．
．．．．踩．．踩．．．．．踩．踩．．．．．
．．．．．踩．．踩．．．．踩．．踩．．．．
．．．．．．踩．．踩．．踩．踩．踩．．．． .
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踩．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．踩
踩．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．踩
踩．．．．．∩．．．．．．．∩．．．．．踩
踩．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．．踩
踩．．．．◎．．．．U．．．．◎．．．．踩
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．．踩踩．．．．．．．．．．．．．踩踩．．
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T.T hormone disorder

2009-09-21T15:26:00.002+08:00

i'm like so so so so fugly lah.
wth, turned out my rashes or skin infection thingy wasn't what i was told to be.
to hell to that doctor, charged me $180++ and turned out to be a wrong diagnosis):
family doctor's still the best!

i'm like having hormone disorders and currently am plagued with acnes on my back and upper chest area. now my face is like full of pimples T.T

takes 12 weeks to recover and this means i can't swim on cruise):

I'm sorry.

2009-09-19T12:06:00.005+08:00

She was staring at me with such intensity that i thought she could have see right through me and read my thoughts.

"What have you done?" She asked me, revealing a tone of disappointment

I hung my head low, ashamed of the deed which i have committed.
I refused to meet her gaze. I was guilty.
Very, very, very guilty.

"What have you done?" She asked again, voice strained, suppressing her irritation.

i shook my head in response and looked away, unwilling to answer her question .
i was afraid, afraid that once i have admitted my crime, she would leave me alone and not speak to me ever again.

i cannot afford to lose her.

"What have you done!" She thundered, with distinct anger and irritation.

My heart raced like a rampaging piston.

"I... I... ," i stammered, very much taken aback by her sudden outburst of rage.

I'm sorry, it was all a mistake! i didn't mean to do it!
We were drunk..

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

I closed my eyes as i felt a bout of tears coming.
A million questions filled my mind.

Why? Why did he have to do it? What on earth was he thinking?

No, i'm not going to cry, i convinced myself and struggledto maintain a cool composure.

I stared at him in dismay.

"What have you done?" I asked him, clearly showing utter disappointment in my voice.

He refused to meet my gaze and hung his head low.
Again. Forever showing me this attitude when he is unwilling to speak.

"What have you done?" i asked again, suppressing my irritation against his attitude.
Answer me please? Tell me you haven't done it. Please!

He shook his head in response and looked away.
Why? Can you speak up? Can you stop pushing me away?
Do you know how much my heart aches? Love, please tell me it wasn't you who have done it.
Please...

"What have you done!" I thundered, demanding for an answer.

Finally, my i could no longer hold back my tears.
A river of sorrow flowed down my face.
I lost my usual, calm demeanor and finally broke down.

If only it wasn't my sister.

2009-09-16T18:54:00.000+08:00

fuck.
there must be a conspiracy against me
first rashes then fever cough and flu and what?
just when i want to go home it started raining?
what do you want from me god?
since you decided to let me live and didn't kill me back when i was two or three then why make my life so tough?
i spent 200 over bucks to treat my skin and its not working and im taking medicine everyday like its my meal.
what do you want from me?
if you want to make me realise how fortunate i amk to have family members to look after me or what then well its wrong!
you are just making them suffer because of me.

new handphone!

2009-09-09T23:27:00.002+08:00

hi world!
i got the sudden urge to blog about my feeling about the thought of getting a new handphone.
yes, i, still am as lame as before.

eeeeeeeeeeeeek.
today i saw Samsung i8910HD online and already immediately, i am smitten by it!
the phone i super duper uber chio and of course, that goes w/o saying, so is the price lah.
being a realistic person i know i can never afford that unless i save up for about two more years):
haha, at least i know how big my hat is and shall be a good daughter and not pester my parents for money to buy the phone.

lol, that is definately not me lah.
one phone = 1000bucks?
i can like takeaway 1000 bowls of cheng teng in chong pang can.
if not can buy 500 plates of chicken rice or char kway teow :/
hence, such extravagant wish shall not linger around my mind!

therefore, maybe i am aiming for a $0 phone:D
haehae, if not i shall use my remainder of the money in my bank to top up for newer phones.
omggggggggggg. idk why i'm like so excited about the thought of getting a new phone.
i think my life needs something new in it and i need a breakthrough lah.
have been cooping up at home for days wactching teevee, eating, sleep, studying and repeating the whole ritual again and again.
this is like so diao.
i bet people like Jiaxiang/Zongxuan/Mingen/Jasmine and Ho byebye gang will end up killing themselves if they were in my body!

hah, btw today is Jiaxiang's birthday and i plainly forgot about it.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ( if he saw this lah)
wanted to give him wang wang as birthday present but he rejected hahah.
gave it to Hidayat instead to help him settle a meal for breaking fast but he heard it wrongly like,
"i prayed to my god but killed your Allah", which is so totally wrong cause i said, " i prayed to my god using the wang wang" :/
we end up laughing like mad and then go our seperate ways home.
i really love going to tuition and meet my mates there cause they seem to bring my endless joy!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
btw, i think my stomach is like turning into the universe's blackhole cause i just can't stop eating.
seems like i will gain more pounds.

what the heck. i think i heard the grasshopper again.
this particular grasshopper has been visting my home for the 4th time if it was here again.
bless me god! i didn't know you gave grasshoppers the ability to fly and it can visit my house so many times when it got out of it again.
like what Chin won said, this is the 7th lunar month.
it's either my eyes playing the tricks of the grasshopper is possessed.
i chose the later though, cause my family members saw that grasshopper tooo.
hope it flys away lah.

okaye, i shall sleep le! byebye world!

samsung omnia hd!

2009-09-09T10:14:00.001+08:00

the phone i want is like a thousand bucks):
which is like x5 the price of my current phone!

BY THE WAY, TODAY IS LIKE 09/09/09! :D
I GUESS 12345678909876543212345678 couples might get married today?!
or maybe 9876543212345678909876543212345 people will try to confess to their admirers?!

HAHA!

Jennifer's Body, Vampires.. and?

2009-09-08T18:28:00.003+08:00

This is like super coooooooool. (refer to the trailers below:D)
i want to catch them!

well, just had dinner.
whooooooooo!
i'm like so fortunate, thank god for giving me a mommy who is a great cook(:
with her around, i don't think i ever will be hungry:O

hoho, grabbed this opportunity to online when i am full.
cause i practically can't work my brains on other stuff except for sinking on my sofa to watch the teevee or switch on my sis's lappy to watch trailers.
HAHA! love to watch trailers on apple.com/trailers!
best way to help me digest my food 8D

say hello to prelims!:D

2009-09-04T19:51:00.002+08:00

hey, it's like 129736954297423947964 hour before i realised i still have this blog:/

well, prelims have already started and what i can say is so far so good(:
except for the fact that i hadn't been very tuned in for examination mood and time management wise wasn't as good as before.

drama was like so funny today!
i swear all of them have got the lame genes in them.
so D: that so many people didn't turn up for drama.
well but looing on the bright side, shakespeare wasn't as smelly as before and is much more spacious(:

great news!
Ah Qiang is going to apply dsa for nanyang jc.
hoho~ another good friend aiming for that school:D

no-so-good news!
Edna wants to get into a jc with music A levels
which mean we don't have a lot of choices to go to the same school):

well, have to go for tuition le T.T
life as a ytzen, always as a ytzen...

so much like strangers.

2009-08-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

we can walk pass each other as though we don't know each other.
pretty___, i wonder if you have ever put in the effort to remember you having this friend here.
i feel so heartbroken):

i don't understand why you just won't give in to me request but can easily fulfil the others'.
i'm getting sick being the one who keeps trying to maintain our friendship but i don't seem to get any response.
dear _____, it may mean no big deal to you.
but i still remember the message you sent me, even though you may not mean it.
you once mentioned we are close friends but if you continue being like that then i will soon turn to past tense.
apologising does help a little to make feel better and make you feel better but if saying sorry(s) really helped, then there will be no need for law and order in this society and policemen will lose their bowl of rice already.

stupid me.
typing this even though you will never come here.
and for letting you go.

goodfind!

2009-08-23T17:56:00.001+08:00

i found out something useful![:
hehs, so happy right now!

Traffic Light

2009-08-23T14:48:00.004+08:00

Just like what Mdm Ho taught, there's a traffic light within everyone's heart.
Yes, the world may be full of many colours on the surface, but many a times we just need to see a few colours.
Three such colours are green, orange and red.
Like the traffic light, green gives you the direction to continue moving ahead while red gives you the command to stop.
Orange is the traffic light's mid colour and it gives you the opportunity to think whether or not you should move ahead or stop.
These three colours may guide us along our way when we are in a state of confusion. It may shine a clear path against all confusion and brighten our way[:

After some thinking, i think it's really time for me to wake up
No point wallowing in self-pity what. No point dwelling over spilt milk also.
No point grudging over the past and blame everybody else for any of my unfair treatments.
Yes, what Katricia said is true. I should look on the sunny side up of my life mah.
No point complaining and feeling al suicidal.
If i feel like crap, then there would be so much garbage around the world already right!!?!??!!?
Even if i don't have the best of friends, at least i have a family who loves me right?
No wait, i have best friends okaye!
even if i have friends who chose to ditch me when i need them, or always heck care me, or friends who don't reply my message even when they saw it, or friends who put on a false front trying to be nice, or friends who choose to sleep and play instead of caring about me, i still have this particular group of friends who will be by my side when i need them, to be there to share not just my happiness but as well as my worries, will nevert abandon me, who will not hurt me and will accept my flaws and the fact that i am who i am.
i thank them sincerely for being there!

i am fortunate.
so i should be contented!:D

after english oral!

2009-08-21T19:39:00.003+08:00

always look on the bright side of life!
even if you feel like shit, make sure you are the golden one! :O

well, oral ended yesterday):
i feel so disappointed with myself.
tooo overwhelmed by nervousness, in the end i spoke like a bullet train.
i even kicked the table accidentally when i sat down.
wth, was so embarrassed, apologised to the teachers.
conversation i almost made a fool out of myself.

i really wanted so much to do well for my english orals!
but how come things turned out like this?):
i trained my speaking like siao everyday!!!
now, all i can do is to pray hard that god has witnessed my hardwork and efforts put into practising my oral way before the actual date itself.
PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE)';

hais, well.
at least oral ended and i can focus on other subjects now.

had physics test today, but think i kinda got stumped by the figures from the data and screwed it.

bright side!
i finally passed georaphy.
initially, i was nearly scared to death.
Ms Chong only keyed in 5 marks for the results in her slip!._.
haha, heng it turned out to be a 15:D

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!D:
prelims are in less than two weeks!
MUST CHIONG LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okaye, have to run for tuition soon!
byebye blog~ i wonder when will i update you again):

when i was still double-chin free!~

2009-08-16T11:50:00.001+08:00

when i was stil double-chin free, without eyebags and dark circles, with a little dimple on my right cheek!

i lack photographs now!~

oh my oh my oh my, prelims are coming soon!>.<

awwwwwwww):

2009-08-14T20:32:00.002+08:00

i miss the old me!

to remember how much i love to wake up early in the morning to enjoy the morning breeze,
and how much i wanted to grow up.

TWO MORE MONTHS!;D
and i will play like siao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and work and earn money and enjoy life will i still can;DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i want go camping at Jon's house and swim in Edna's pool!;D

fortified for the fight.

2009-08-04T18:56:00.002+08:00

fortified for the fight.

i hope i didn't come up with the wrong motto.

control!

2009-08-02T19:12:00.003+08:00

seriously, i really know my flaws.
but knowing my flaws doesn't mean that i can change them over the night!
so i have already planned somthings to keep myself busy and overcome my flaws.
ha, easy said than done. let's see how lor.

actually, i think i already have a big-heart lah, cause i don't purposely do things to want to upset others right?:D

one thing i must cure is my memory lah.
my SSTM.
left my key outside the house again.

okay, now must go do homework le!
can believe i only completed one emaths p1 and one amaths p1?
I STILL HAVE LIKE 1297628359267083238420740274023 more homework to do and test to study!
bye!:D

you can't get into my head!

2009-07-31T19:48:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUQbmFAE5WI
WATCH THIS VIDEO!
i'm so going to watch this movie!! hope it comes out soon in singapore:DDDDDDDDDD
sherlock holmes! so so so so so interesting

when can i stop putting on a false front?

2009-07-28T19:08:00.004+08:00

try being in my shoes for one day!
i think you'll love it.

actually, i hope somebody will take over me to be incharged of the teachers' day rehearsal cause i have tuition everyday and i think i might have got depression:/
oh whatever, you might think that it's just an excuse.

yes, life sucks when you seem to be facing the world alone, when you have nobody to turn to or you just don't know how to confine in your friends.

i know my temper is sucky, and to those whom i have offended, i'm really sorry.
i can't ask you for my forgiveness, cause i shouldn't even have thrown tantrums in the first place.

sometimes in school, i really wonder who are my friends and who are not.
whether of not have i made the right choice to go with the right group of people or is it just my problems.
i guess it's 1/3 of the front part and 2/3 of the later.
i guess i have issues, yes, big issues about socialising stuffs.
many times it's my decision to choose to avoid so, i know don't have the right to blame anybody.
i know avoiding is not the problem but how so?
sometimes when you leave things alone, time will help heal the mess you've gotten yourself into.
i'm sure everybody knows that.

'am i invisible?'
i know the answer is a solid no.
but i can't help feeling so.
i get irritated when i talk to my friends and they just reply in an any-how way.
sometimes, i laugh so loudly to my friends, wanting to share some thoughts with them and they seemed as though they didn't hear you.
i feel like a shit-ass freak and a super duper uber dumbo.
imagine laughing so loudly and talking, hoping for a reply but all you get was nothing.
as if i had autism - talking to myself.

i feeel so tired and wanna runaway.
i feel abandoned, or maybe it was just me that caused myself in this state.
i'm scared, so so scared.
'that i'ld be alone to face my problems and just can't seem to find anybody there to stand by me.
that's why i keep crying.
i really feel ashamed of myself.
that's why i don't want to tell anybody in person about it and i'm using this blog as a channel.

oh, i'm just another coward.

depressed.

2009-07-20T22:44:00.000+08:00

how i wish i can bring pudding to school tomorrow): T.T

what happens if the thought of death keeps lingering in your mind?

2009-07-12T17:12:00.001+08:00

ans:
you will keep torturing yourself, be it mentally of physically.

thought too much

2009-07-10T18:49:00.001+08:00

why the hell must i think so much for others when they don't give a shit about me?

forget it lah.

being poor is like a fish in a puddle of water.

2009-06-28T12:42:00.003+08:00

being poor is like a fish in a puddle of water.
when the weather is too dry, the puddle gets evaporated and you are left to die.

my goal: save $500 by end of the year.

our secret hideout

2009-06-27T22:02:00.003+08:00

Wondering what have i been doing during the school holidays?
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ANS: CAMPING AT NEE SOON CC!

ahhhh, can't upload some photosD:

My new hobby + new habit.

2009-06-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hi, my name is Varina, i am 16 standing at 173.5cm tall.
my new hobby is stalking people online and my new bad habit is sleeping late.

damn meD:<

Okaeri

2009-06-21T19:53:00.006+08:00

i'm done watching Absolute Boyfriend.
it's cool how the actors portrayed the show, even though it's fictional, they made it seemed real.

but the show left me a many question marks.
before watching the final episode(epi 11), i thought the show meant
love knows no bounds, regardless of anything.
even thought Night was a robot, he loved Riko didn't he?
and even thought Riko knew Night was a robot, and mostly the parts of him was programmed to love her, she still loved Night.

however, after watching the special episode,
i can only ask myself if there were bounds in love, regardless of anything?

:/
let's say if Night didn't realise of all the robot/human limitations, then Soshi gave up on Riko and Riko ended up with Night, then it would be Night that was selfish and Riko stupid.

why did Riko ask if Night was only saying those things to her because he was only programmed to love her?
why must Night lie to her that he was only programmed to love her when he really did love her?
was it because he thought that would make Riko feel more confirmed to give up on him?
and Riko.
she pretended that she didn't know Night had his own ego and loved her out of his programme.

In the end, Night realised their difference and pushed Riko away to Soshi, Riko gave up on Night and chose Soshi.
Was it selfish of Riko?
And Night.
Did he think that, that Riko would really find her happiness?
She would never be able to forget Night right?:/

why why why!

i kept crying at the end of the show.
even love must be so realistic!D:

hais.

btw, listen to this song!

if you can't find a word to describe this song,
i can only tell you that i think it is "bitter-sweet".

i think this song contained a story within it,
maybe to describe how Night was satisfied enough by just being able to see Riko smile, and Riko was grateful that Night loved her.

okaeri sweet home
kaeru bashou yeah
ai wo arigatou

mata heiki no furi wo shite
kanashimi no iro wo nuritsubushite
waratte shimaun desu
shinjiru koto no taisetsusa
wakatteru no ni iza to iu toki
utagatte shimau yeah

karappo no karada
nagareru toki ni
fuiteshimaisou ni naru kedo
anata no koto dakishimetai
kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

okaeri im home
hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
okaeri sweet home
kaeru bashou yeah
ai wo arigatou
sweet home

jibun no koto bakkari wo
kangaeru otona wa zuruin da to
omotteitan desu
demo hisshi ni kaeru koto wo
sakenderu hito mo iru’n da
yatto shitta’n desu

atarimae no shiawase nanka
kono sekai ni hitotsu mo nai
anata no tame, sou omoeta
kono kimochi katsugi ugokasu no

okaeri im home
supiido ga kasokushiteku mainichi
okaeri sweet home
kawaranai zutto aru keshiki
sweet home

sagashite nakushita
kokoro no kizu ga
tachimukau tsuyosa ni kawareta no wa
“okaeri” ga atta kara

okaeri im home
hitogoto de mitasareru kokoro
okaeri sweet home
kaeru bashou yeah
ai wo arigatou

okaeri im home
daijoubu anata ga iru kara
okaeri sweet home
mattete ne mou sugu tsuku kara
sweet home
oh yeah
okaeri…sweet home

TRANSLATION:
Welcome home, sweet home
A place to go home to yeah
Thanks for your love

Pretending to be alright again
to paint out the color of sadness
I just laugh it off

The importance of believing
Even if I understand it
Well, there are times when I still doubt

Times when my empty body
just flows by
It makes me want to just lie down, but
I just want to hold you
These feelings stab through me so I can move on

Welcome home-- I'm home
With one word my heart is satisfied
Welcome home, sweet home
where love has a place to go home to, yeah
Thanks for your love
Sweet home

I used to believe adults think
only of themselves and they are cunning
But there are people desperately trying to go back
Even screaming out loud
I finally realized that

There is no such thing as
one natural happiness in this world
For your sake, I was able to realize that
By carrying these feelings,
I can move on

Welcome home, I'm home
Accelerating the speed of everyday
Welcome home-- Sweet home
There will always be this unchanging scenery
Sweet home

Search for the missing
wound in your heart
The thing that made me fight and go on
Was because there was a “welcome home”

Welcome home-- I'm home
With one word my heart is satisfied
Welcome home, sweet home
where love
has a place to go home to, yeah
Thank for your love

Welcome home-- I'm home
It’s alright because you are here
Welcome home, sweet home
keep waiting, because I’m arriving soon
Sweet home

oh yeah
Welcome home… sweet home

class bbq;D

2009-06-21T11:51:00.002+08:00

hello world, say hi to my shining superstar!;D

i bet my lesbian will make it big to Bollywood!;D
hahah, she's gonna be the future superstar!

lols, joking.
it just looked fun having holy light shining behind our back:D

and now say hello to the future top model in Singapore.
lols, joking.
i think if i were to be the top model in Singapore,
Singapore will experience fashion catastrophe.

haha, i love the glowing lights.

we wre just kinda bored alighting at the wrong stop and waiting for people to direct us to our bbq pit.

see, my lesbian got so hungry waiting that she wanted to eat the sign board.

gosh, why do i look like a pregnant lady.
hahah, light illusion.

bbq was fun okay!

had great food and games!

took photos and perspired like don't know what!

i want bbq again!;D

i want double-storey chalet!;D

p/s; We are not lesbians. it's just a nick.

now i know why.

2009-06-14T23:33:00.001+08:00

all this while, i was afraid to reach out.
to those i love.

farmart.

2009-06-14T21:08:00.010+08:00

Farmart = far+ mart = farm + mart = farm + art!

okay, that was random.
today, went to Farmart with my family!
was sort of random and we just went ahead to the place, lols.

oh, before i bomb pictures again, yesterday everybody in my family(four people nia)
was damn happy, cause we all thought that it would like rain very heavily!
these past few days were stinky hot!
stinky as in the humidity makes you sweat and stuffs like that-.-'
bathed more that usual days, waste money you know!
i think this would make the PUB damn happy, as when the water usage meter starts ticking away, money starts rolling their way:/

weather was somewhat like this:

i swear the actual scene should be much more darker kaye!

yesterday mum sent me down to buy a packet of so da pia and a can of baked beans.
i felt like i was in some kind of horror film once i stepped out of my block's lift man._.
you know, like the sky made everywhere looked empty and abandoned, the wind strong, making trees swaying like don't know what and newspapers flying about on the ground.

in the end, after i got home, i think the wind got too big and blew all the dark clouds away.
it didn't rain afterall, think it rained somewhere else:/

okay, shall get back to today!
basically, Farmart is a place where there are animals and food.
(that's what i think lah.)
not very good at elaboration, so let the pictures do the talking kay!
i am lazyyyyyyyyyyy.

oh yah, went to Qian Hu too.

that is what i call a sheepish look.
lols, no lah. joking. they are actually goats.

see this couple of bunnies?
i swear they looked as though they jumped out straight from a fairy tale!
idk why lah, but they really have this very fairy-tale-bunny look.

the one on the left sure looks like Pudding!

mum likes rabbit too.

hahah, the bird on the right was actually a competition bird!
it was so hungry that it actually had an illusion that it was a rabbit and decided to eat carrots.

at first, we thought that this Minah(?) (idk how to spell lah) was hungry.
then the person told us it just felt intimidated by the carrot for invading it's territory-.-''

i guess she doesn't like fishes as much as rabbits.

okay lah!
shall go!
btw, next wk is father's day!

outings post!:D

2009-06-13T11:02:00.014+08:00

i am finally reviving my blog! whooooooooooooooooooo;D

yeah man, i've changed my blogskin!

went for bowling yesterday!;D

with Hui Jun, Jia Qiu, Xue Ci, Jon and Xinqiang![:

i am officially broke nowD:

but worth it! had so much fun!

lols, even broke my part of my thumbnail, but not injured.

candid shots:

Hui Jun very pro!

Her first time playing and yet she keep getting spares;D

Xinqiang and Jon keep getting gutter balls!

and they keep saying, " welcome to the gutter ball club! "

hoho, i won for the first round!;D

Jon the second round.

Xinqiang still kept gutter-ing the ball. hoho.

after that, Hui Jun and Jia Qiu went home for dinner.

then the oteher four of us went to northpoint to settle our meals.

after dinner was arcade!

omg, Xueci and I kept playing the three-buttons machine.

kept hitting the button like siao! very fun;D

lols, Jon and Xinqiang played this Jungle shooting game.

lols, in the end then we realised that it was actually meant for couples and their compatibility was like 24%. HAAHHAHA.

after that went home le loh.

bowling pictures!;D

a pile of holiday assignments i have to finish._.

whoooo, went out with Katricia and Xueci on last Sunday.

kind of a last minute celebration for Kat's birthday.

went to Sticky and bought her sweets:D

the sweets from Sticky are all hand-made!

and it's especially sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

very nice, one packet, 100g $3.90.

one selling point about sticky is that they have customised lollipops, (and maybe sweets)

and they come in many many different flavours!

sweets that are circular have patterns in them! (see below!;D)

some other interesting flavours include kiwi, (which look like extremely real but mini sized kiwi fruits!), cherry, banana and many more.

below is part of the sweet making process[:

the whole shop is like sugar, sugar and still sugar-smelling;D

after that we continued to shop around Central...
aiyah, just took a lot of pictures lor.

^^ Kimbereley's treat to Pastamania!

cup noodles for lunch):

pooooooooooooooor..

damn com!

2009-06-11T22:49:00.002+08:00

omg. i can't believe my family.
before i went for tuition, i already asked my mum to tell my sister to switch of the computer once all my class's photos are uploaded.
in the end?!
the left the com on for four hours straight until now!
and yet i have only uploaded 20+ photos cause my com went to snooze!D:<
such a waste of money and time O:<

now i must upload everything again.
tsk.

study day!

2009-06-10T20:02:00.004+08:00

omg, today i have been studying since 10plus to 6plus.
not exactly study, should say do homework.
but actually also not much completed, only one compo and a situational writing.

whooo, stayed in air-con room whole day!

today, ate at Jiaqiu's house with Xueci!
thank you Jiaqiu and her mother!
her ban mian very nice!;D
i thought i saved $4!

but in the end i bought the stupid mini oreos at $4, so there goes my money T.T

lols, initially actually wanted to find Dinn, Winny, Akbar and Hasanah to eat.
but just when i was about to reply them, Xueci appeared and brought me to Jiaqiu's house.
haha, they asked if i wanted to watch movies with them!
so nice! got people ask me T.T , Dinn even wanted to treat me.
but i rejected the offer hahah.
if i go, it will be damn bright for the couples ah!D:

lols, the person i was msging a few minutes ago has a blackhole as his stomach.
he invest all his money on his stomach.
best thing is, he doesn't even grow fatter than a toothpick._.'
so good.
lol. i guess he went back to sleep.
so unfair, people like me gain as much weight as i put in.

okay, tmr gonna go study room, again!;D

loner? not bad.

2009-06-09T23:29:00.004+08:00

sometimes; two is better than one.
current situation; one is better by one.

now i know what is peer pressure._.'

must control my temper!D:

i am such a hypocrite.
why must i lie to A, B, C when i go out with D, E, F?
why must i lie to D, E, F when i go out with A, B, C?
all just to prevent the arise of unhappiness.

why must i have friends running to me to tell me that another friend is jealous just because i talk to them.
why must i have friends who complain to me about each other.

i
begbbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbeg
begbegbegbegegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbeg
begbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbegbeg
please put your feet(s) in my shoes.

i'm super sandwiched in between friends.
god, save me.
i am drowning in others' thoughts.
imagine every other day, you have different friends complaining to me about some other friends
-.-'
really v hard to tahan.
i only hope we can all get along well together and not stand seperately.
T.T

i feel so tired, that i just want to be alone and emo.

rock climbing rocks!

2009-06-06T20:34:00.004+08:00

rock climbing today was very fun today!

climbed two times!;D

had so much fun and took lots of photos!

shall update the photos when Edna uploads them;D

haehae, some random photos that had been taken few weeks ago.

Honey and Pudding!<3
damn cute right?!

like owner like rabbit:D

saw this kitty wanting to eat so badly.

happy advanced birthday to Kat !:D

yet another sad day.

2009-06-05T19:50:00.001+08:00

he is going to break his promise yet again.

if only we were healthier.
life wouldn't be so stressful.

bang bang!

2009-05-31T10:52:00.000+08:00

someone should point a gun at me and ask me to get seriousD:

a special post for someone.

2009-05-26T19:17:00.003+08:00

p/s: typed too fast, no time go check sentence structure>.<

hello.
yes, as my title suggests, i am dedicating this post to someone.

i blog hopped a bit just now, and came across this person's blog.
i know this person might read this post, so yes, i am writing to you.

if you think that going to school is a waste of time, then i guess you really have to do something about it.
this is because in Singapore, nobody can escape away from schooling, unless for any special reason besides feeling that going to school is boring.
i advice you either change your negative mindset to a positive one, or if you really really hate school, then maybe you should change another school which you think might make you feel that going to school can be a more interesting place than just sitting down in the classroom waiting for school to end.

however, without changing your attitude towards schooling, than even if you were to change a your school, then well, if doesn't make a difference because you would most likely find the new school boring like the old one. you know, just like how you thought changing your cca to a new one might be fun, but then you just end up unwilling to stay committed to that cca and want a transfer to a third cca.

in life, even if you don't like to do something, you still have no choice about it BUT, over here, you have a choice.
you should do something about it.

one advice is that, " the secret of happpiness is not doing what one likes, but in liking what one does."
i hope that after reading this post, it might do you some help(:

* please don't identify yourself. keep it a secret?

changing bloglink soon

2009-05-25T22:35:00.003+08:00

yes people, i am changing my blog link soon.
shall change when i have more time.

today hasn't been a good day for me.
people keep picking on me for idk what the reasons are.
why must people keep criticizing others to make themselves feel better?
hahah, should be the lack of confidence in them.

today had ice-cream party!
lol.
morning Jorene told me she saw some teacher getting four tubs of ice-cream and i was like, "wth?'
lol, initially thought was one cca one tub of ice-cream, then didn't want to turn up.
but still turned up hahah, guess my gastric intuition was right.
we had magnolia cone ice-creams! say yaye!
(and ferrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrooooo roooocccchhhhhhhherrrrrrrrrr;D)
thank you to whoever (should be Mr tan) who sponsored and treated us.

tsk. right now my sister is criticizing me for typing loudly, which is unintentional and i think is her keypad's problem lor!

mother tongue everyday!
it's like living in some small part of China in school now!
the boring thing is that we have to keep doing the same thing again over and over again..
the goood thing is that i have improved my answer skills.
eee. last year when we took cl paper wasn't even so =.='
we weren't even properly briefed about how to stick the barcode thing on our question sheet lor!
last year i stuck the upper one instead of the lower one on my question sheet, heng thing a kind teacher realised it and came to my rescue.
oh yah, and we weren't even informed that we would not be given foolscape papers but everything would be compiled in a booklet.
-.-; i was scared the shit out of me last year:/

so, good luck to those who are taking cl paper this year!
must check everything properly okay!

you reap what you sow.

2009-05-20T23:49:00.002+08:00

i believe in karma and reincarnation, just like people believing in what goes around comes around.

hahah, random.
i think i deserve what i get in friendships, cause i know how much or how little i am committed to a friend.

hey, i'm gonna use Mozilla Firefox for homework and blogging, and use Internet Explorer for entertaintment!
i prefer the fonts and neat arrangement of Firefox moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

eeeeeeeeeeek. tmr got mt paper 1 must chiong!
tah tah!D:

The meaning of my name O.O

2009-05-17T13:50:00.002+08:00

Finally, like i somehow got to know more about the definition of my name:

The girl's name Varina \v(a)-ri-na\.
Possibly a respelling of Verena.
The name of an early Virginia plantation, and also of the wife of Jefferson Davis, hero of the Confederacy.

Varina is a very rare female first name and a very rare surname

for more information, go to http://www.thinkbabynames.com/meaning/0/Varina

omg.
so my name somewhat came from a plantation.
HAHAH.
my parents said that chose this name for me cuz' it's unique. LOL.
i wonder how did they even come across this name in the first place.
my mum claimed they found my name on a baby names book
which i can't seem to find my name in any of such books lor-.-'''

i heard that initially, my mum wanted to name me Sarah.
and then my dad objected because she don't want another daughter's name starting with the letter 'S'.
why why why!
i think Sarah is such a pretty name.
see lah, name me Varina, my sister Sharon.
now everyday VS, VS, VS until no peace.

look at Sarah's definition:
The girl's name Sarah \s(a)-rah\ is pronounced SARE-ah.
It is of Hebrew origin, and its meaning is "princess". Biblical: originally called Sarai,
Sarah shared an adventurous nomadic life with her husband Abraham.
She is described as being exceptionally beautiful even into her older years.
The name became popular in the 16th century.
Both Sara (popular in Germany) and Sarah are used in blended and compound names.
See also Sahara.
Actresses Sarah Bernhardt, Sarah Siddons, Sarah Jessica Parker, Sarah Jessica Parker, Sarah Michelle Gellar; singer Sarah Vaughn; poet Sara Teasdale; Sarah Ferguson, Duchess of York; figure skater Sarah Hughes.

hahah.
enough of the rantings about my name.

today, went to sembawang park with family.
saw a lot of cats, so cuteeeeeeeeeeeee.
we also saw a little monkey scratching all over its body, like it's itching all over.
dad went to took it's photo, and then the monkey somewhat roared at him.
he roared back at the monkey, and the monkey nearly jumped onto him O.O

after that went to eat breakfast nearby the catholic church in ave2,
and mum went to look for her friends.
went to Aqua Star aquarium.
then i decided to go and look for the old watermelon playground,
but found out that it is no longer existing):
so sad, it's like seeing part of my childhood memory fading away,
how i used to go to the playground to play the tire swing with Ruiting and chatting and slacking there.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz.
i read finished all the books i'd borrowed.
want to go library tmr again!
going to gym w Xueci in the morning!

byebye, still got tons of homework uncompleted:O

cough,flu and stupid gum + bad results.

2009-05-16T16:16:00.002+08:00

D':
THIS IS MADNESS!
this is ~~sparta~~!!!!!

why does all the bad things keep bombing my way this week?!
urgh. life is such:/

firstly, i freaking failed amaths. okaye, not so freaking afterall, cause i already expected it to happen.
i failed geo too):
lucky thing i passed combined humans, by merely 1 mark smore-.-
which i felt damn sad cause i did quite well for both subjects last year.
what happened to my brains!?!?!!?!?!!!?!!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T
i mugged for geo lor!
curse those who never study and passed with flying colours._.'
so unfair one T.T

right now, i am having cough, flu, and a bad gum.
at the start of the week, i was still so happy chirping to people about my subway meal with my tuition mates, and was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO looking forward to today.
was supposed to have dinner with them tonight, but damn, i am stuck here sick at home because i can't play at splash park and get all wet and then further torture and aggravate my poor, weak lung conditionD:

and, talking about my stupid gum.
my gum has been aching since last sunday, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!
i thought it would like get better in the next few days or so but, the pain just don't and won't go away):

Xueci said maybe it could be a wisdom tooth ( btw, i thought all my teeth had stopped growing and didn't know there was such tooth named Wisdom until this year. shows you how suagu & ignorant i can get:/ )

therefore, to stop that annoying pain after every meal i have, i finally sort of plucked up my courage to go and look for the dentist.
that's right, the dentist in the big green box in our school.
(btw, i also didn't notice the dentist was in our school for the past month until my dad told me on wednesday-.-' how observant can i get?)

but hell yeah, the dentist did not turn up on both thursday and friday.
therefore, couldn't do anything except for chewing my food on the left side of my mouth instead of the right side where the gum aches.

but phew, after popping two panadols yesterday, i woke up today i found that my cough, flu and gum felt much better.
all still there, but less sickkky and less painful.
just when i was happily laughing away at some joke my mum cracked, i felt another throb of pain in my left upper gum.
walao i tell you, my blood vessels nearly burst from underneath my skin!
i reached my finger into my mouth to touch the spot and guess what i felt?
a hard, little bum poking out of my gum.
ANOTHER TOOTH GROWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WTH!@^@^@)&#_!&#!^#!*_!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i decided already.
forget it lah.
unless it pained me like i was having some menstrual cramp, then i go look for a dentist.
bloody hell one-.-'

RWAR.
since this week is a suay week, i really hope next week will be a lucky week uh.
yaye! i'm going to gym w xueci on mon evening.
work out, work out!( hope it really works out, though.)

p/s; I WANT REPLACE SUBWAY MEAL NEXT WEEK! AND GET ALL WET PLAYING IN SPLASH PARK! hope so:D

this is so sian:/

2009-05-10T18:26:00.005+08:00

At first, i wanted my fringe to be like that.

but it just ended up like the DMC mushroom head=.='

i want back my right parting fringe!

okaye, enough of the randomness.

I AM VARINA!

HEAR ME RWAR!:O

this is so sian:/

Edna is away at her grandma's house, and nobody else seem to check their handphone.

Jowin!

if you happen to see this post, i want go your house play wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiD':

damn my com!

i loaded blood and chocolate for like, three-quater way through.

accidentally clicked fast forward and the whole thing stopped altogether._.'

somebody make me laugh please!

i feel so stagnant now):

i need surprises!:O

i need to do something crazyD:

Happy Day!:D

2009-05-09T18:51:00.026+08:00

*will update this post soon! photos first!:D
btw, click on the photos to enlarge, sorry for the inconvenience caused :O!

went out w Xinqiang, Jonathan, Edna and Peiying yesterday!;D
(order follows by the photo below and of course, the last one is me. eeeeeyur. my camera lousy! i'm like so blurry in the photo._.')

expect a photo bomb!
great god i started taking photos only after we went for pool ._.

hoho, i so love yesterday, so i'm gonna elaborate more in words than just letting the the picture speak their thousand words:D
i expect xiao Qiang to skip all the words if he were to chance upon my blog. LOL.

whoooo! yesterday morning was something i expected to be shitty but turned out fine cuz' i passed physics paper 1, HAHA!:D

chemistry test was like so (?) hahah, but was quite fun though. Qn4 was the most difficult, so had no choice but resulted to copying (which everybody did) & i copied from Afza, Jasena from me, and then Ruijing from Jasena. lol. reason was because we sat in one same row.

After dismissal, i rushed home like a crazy woman, bathed, grabbed my bag and money and ran off to yishun mrt. smsed the guys that i might be late, but ended up reaching there first -.-'. whoooooo! my lunch was a $1.90 cheese hotdog bun from 7-11.

after that Edna found me and then we waited for Jon to come which in the end, he ended up in khatib with peiying hahah, clever boy -.-'

whooooooooos. met on the mrt train and zooooooooomed off to amk hub.

We were late for the movie uh:/ , missed about 5 mins of teh start of the movie but uh, nvm, still made it in time for most of the movie:D

ZAC EFROM IS SUPER DUPER UBER HOT!;D

okay, that's not the main point.

He really seemed and felt like a father leh. i nearly cried when he confessed to his wife on court, so touching! T.T

of course, partly it was because it was such a pain to see a sweetheart cry but mostly because of his acting uh! lols.

movie was good! the movie was damn hilarious because of the 'oh-so-abnormal-millionaire-elf language-guy' lah!

although the storyline was simple, i think i really did bring an important message across.

humans often get held back in our lives because we kept getting stuck in our memories:/

thoughts like 'what if' leads to regret and then we find ourselves stuck in the mudhole. i think the director shot this movie to remind us to move on and cherish our present life. uhm, yes, totally agree.

peiying said she saw Clarissa and Eric after that. i feel happy for the both of them, idk why also. hahahs.

after which, we pangseh-ed jon outside and then we three went to the toilet.

and produced the picture below, which i feel a bit sad cause Jon can't be in the females' toilet:/

deciding what to do next was the most time-eating task i tell you!D:
next time come out must plan everything properly then can!
cause we practically discussed our next activity for about anhour and then decided to continue where to go to after our dinner-.-'
we ended up eating at one ulu kopitian neart yishun mrt.
why ah? why ah?
because there got vegetarian what, because of who huh?:/
hoho, joking lah. Edna don't get offended hor:D

awldpoajfaewn qlnlduq pojeqwm lqdjqp >>>>>>>>
told them some racists jokes and then finally concluded to go for pool @safra.
we somewhat cheated Xinqiang out and went there hahaha!

lol, check out his expression man! unglam, unglam~

POOL IS FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN;D

this is my second time playing pool! 1st time for Edna and Jon:D
wah, i tell you. They're skills are better than mine lor!
Edna first time playing already can piak three balls consecutively into the hole 'O'!
Jon also not bad, learn very fast lor.
i piak the ball, the ball machiam kena electric shot, still will bounce up and then roll one-.-'
HAHAH, but then still managed to score a few points lah!
Peiying and Xinqiang suay one, getting files and one time one of them even got -ve 1point, LOLOLOL!
but then their skills are way better than we three noooooooooooooooooobs lor, they piak the ball until like very professional like that.
see below, they give that serious face when piaking the ball O.O

midway, Edna and i ran to the toilet to relief our bladddddddddddder.
returned alr, the three of them started the next game.
being clever people, we then started to entertain ourselves yet again by taking retarded photos;D
lol, why i sound so proud bragging about the retarded part.
see.
the three behind were totally into piaking the balls and we two infront were totally into taking photos.
really lor, we two posed like the three of them don't exist in the same room. LMAO.

halfway through, Jon kindly offered his hand to help us take photos, hahas, so sweet.

after taking a few shots, we felt quit sian ah.
then Edna happily took my camera away and snap our photos.
ey Edna, got road to become PI liao, lols.

after that round, we joined back in the game and continued pool-ing.
which the both of us managed to win one round=D

and then we went back into retarded mode again.
posed for pictures like nobody's business=.='

the more normal ones:

act cute ones:

act emo ones:

the uncatergorised ones:

the sepia ones:

and my act high ones:D

after pool-ing, saw Jethro.
walao, i ant meah. so tall still cnt see me.
no. i think is he pahjiao...

after payment, that took group photo!
the below photo ca show you how laoya my camera is lor.
so paiseh, like took three times the produced the first photo at the top of this post>.<

after that went to 7-11, then walked back to interchange.
saw Xinqiang and Peiying's senior, then they talked talked talked.
in the end Edna went home first cause her mum rushed her:/
after they finished their reunion talking, they went to train home and i bused home with Jon.
he complained that i speak too little in person compared to phone:/
(protest! i think i talked a lot liao!:O)
haha, talked to him about the perverttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt and crapped otw home.
i alighted first and then go home le lor>:

!! just nice when i wanted to sleep, Chin Won msged me and reminded me that i have tuiton today!D:
i really thought don't have tuition today leh! cause Vesak day mah!
but hahah, i love my tuition mates, so i turned up:D
shit, forgot to wish Jesny off. hope she have fun in malaysia:>

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TODAY: went for tuition haha.
had a conversation about Mas Selamat, and then the common terrorist threats nowadays.
okay, time is late, so i shall not elaborate much>.<

after tuition, went to Sengkang to pray, had lunch at the temple and then we headed off to tampines.
at first, went to Giant to get some things first, then went to shop.
the day was shitty):
we checked out new shopping centre there etc etc.

on the way when leaving the tampines mall, dad caught an eye on a watch offer @city chain.
thus, we went in and asked about it lah.
daddy has been asking around to get a watch for me since the day i told him the cheapo one i bought spoilt):
ahhhhhhh.
i felt like crying lor, he always try so hard to want to provide the best for me.
the shop was having an offer, selling certain watches @$29.
therefore, i chose this yellow one below<: actual price was about 70bucks, i think because it's some bit outdated that's why they are selling it at such low prices.

i love dad lah! i will take good care of this watch lor!
actually not bad eh, although it may be outdated (maybe v outdated to some people), i think it's pretty lor! this is the second watch dad bought for me!
first one was bought way back in P4 and i was extremely sad when i spoilt):
the first one has more functions than this! and cost only @$4.90. LOLOLOLS.

when i grow up, i want to provide the best for my parents like they do for me now![:
i love them!

aye, i want complain.
idk why my com has been so laggy lately.
dk because if it's old or because i haven't being using it for quite some while already.
my com looks new anyway!

it should be four years old this year!:D

p/s; i want to go out w the guys again!;
p/s x 2; ___ don't know, ___ mean a lot to me:/
p/s x 3; i can remember a lot of things about youD:

super duper uber late post:/

2009-05-07T22:50:00.005+08:00

yo dude, check out my spastic look.
i'm sure my image will go from 0 to -ve.

look at that dead fishy eyes -.-

yah, pictures taken in edna's house way back in dec. hahah.

extremely late update of photos taken in minxia's house ._,'''

hoho, tah tah!;D

end of mye!

2009-05-07T17:41:00.002+08:00

whooooo!~
it's been like ages since i last bloggedO.o
like finally, MYE ENDED !('o')V
haha, except for triple science people like edna.
wish you good luck for bio paper1 uh!(:

gwen! i will post some pictures let you see soon okay
then won't sian! :D

sorry girls! not going to flyer w you guysD:
cause' i have tuition and i am the not lo-man-tic night flyer person._.
going out to watch 17 again though!
have to destress in anyway..
whoooo~

tmr got chem test.
sian! T_T

xiaobin and justin very naughty!
called me auntie, smore what auntiepimple -.-''

okay, byebye! have to run for dinner! having tuition later!
i love tuition! say yaye!:D

Memories08'-09'

2009-04-03T22:59:00.005+08:00

*Warning: may result in stinging pain in the eye due to too many sentences.

Hello everybody! So far so good?

Yea right, it’s already 11pm now!

Goodness gracious!

You see, I have sacrificed my beauty sleep to type this letter to you guys leh!

Must appreciate okay!;D

Btw, I still haven’t completed my ss hw yet!:/ die.

Firstly, I want to thank our teachers, fellow excos and all of you for being a part of our Drama family:D

I believe that without you here, no matter who you are, this CCA will not be complete!D:

We guys grew from strangers to club mates, to friends and even became besties.

We once had fun together, laughed at stupid jokes, cried together

and had done retarded forfeits before!

(e.g., watermelon dances!)

These are the memories that we have created right, right?(:

Let's talk about the past now!

Hey, I can still remember that when Qiuru was in Sec1, she was so soft-spoken when we put up

“The Three Little Pigs” during Drama camp.

Then, she became so power when playing “Jack & The Beanstalk” during the Roald Dahl project!;D

Also, Huishi and Audrey, esp Huishi, were very very shy when they first transferred to Drama!

They couldn’t even project their voice using their diaphragms!

Now, they can even “HAH” from the stage to the end of the hall man! O.O

And voice projection somewhat produced Audrey's sinister laughters! hahah!

Can you remember Royston being so shy in his “little red riding hood” costume?

(he wore it wen he was publicizing for e Roahl Dahl project)

Now, the seemingly shy boy then, had become a big chatter-box! HAHAH, so noisy!xD

Next, it's Sharil!

At first I thought he was a rather decent boy,

and then after I got to know him better, I realized that no guys in Drama can be horny-ier than him!-.-‘

Really lor! Don't be fooled by his appearance hor!8D

Talk about Hamzah, MAN! I want to clarify that he is certaintly not gay!

(Aft the pirates of the curry bean.. sexy Elizabeth.)

Even though he looks like one. LOLS.

okay, the above stated was a joke, no offence, no offence please!

*whispers*

He is actually a 1^st runner-up from Sharil for being horny;D

Ah, there are many more to name, but due to time constraint, please pardon me!

i think if i were to continue naming the people, i will complete this post next year lo.

AHAHAHA!:D

wait, the below stated is rather confusing,

cause actually i wanted to relate to you guys what happened in the past

but then after reading through it,

i landed myself with question marks all over the sentences._.'

Although we may not be the closest friends to one another,
we have placed trust on one another and were willing to share about our own stories.
I can still remember that back then in Sec2, “The Swing” crew came together
and shared stories about the lowest point in our life.
“The Swing” was a play portraying about the problems of four teenagers.
We dug out our memories that we did our best to bury at the back of our mind,
shared it with the crew and related it to the play.
We opened up our scars and revealed the pain that we had kept in our heart.
Everybody cried our heart out during that session.
We have let one another stepped into our heart and built trust.

Also, last year we had our production name “Twisted” right?

There was once I gathered the twisted crew and tried out a similar session.
We also shared our troubles with one another and related our feelings to the play.

Drama!:D

THINK ABOUT IT!

Will a group of girls wearing beautiful costumes/people playing wonderful instruments/

a platoon of people marching under the hot sun come together and share their darkest secrets?

This is not a rhetorical question okaye, no offense de:/

Drama club actually provided this kind of activties for us to know each other better and

share our joy and sadness!

Overall,

I think Drama has really bonded us from a single strand to one bundle.

To me, Drama is a place where I let down my guard and reveal my true self!

Forget about my image and try out different characters in playacting!

(e.g. my acting as a dork today)

Our CCA is more than just a place to have fun and take a break from our heavy academics okaye!

Here in Drama, I have learnt far more than acting skills & voice projection.

I have learnt more about how to express myself through acting

& learnt how to “accept” than to “reject”.

I believe that you guys have realised it too right?;D

See, Drama can not only let you relax, but also gain knowledge at the same time hor!;>

to the current batch of sec3s:

hahah, the sec4s and 5s have officially stepped down from Drama already!

now, it's your turn to take over and bring our cca to greater heights okay!

warning:

make sure that you are well-prepared to step up

and take on any leadership roles!

there is bound to be friction between your fellow cca mates.

no matter what, think for the bigger situation and stay calm before making any decisions.

do not let your emotions rule over you and

you should never bring your personal conflicts

with your fellow cca mates into the light.

be judgemental, or it would only cost you to lose your respects from the others.

for those who managed to get any posts,

be sure to fulfill your duties and SHOW THEM YOU CAN DO IT!:D

for those who did not manage to get any posts,

oh please do not be upset!

enjoy participating in the activities that your fellow

excos have planned, cause often, you get more fun than they do.

hahhahah!;D

to the juniors:

please coorperate with your seniors!

learn things from them and one day, you will be become a great leader!:D

don't keep absenting for cca kay!

must be a good and responsible Drama mama/papa!(:

To my ex-cos:

thank you for being there to guide and support me througout the year!

without you guys,

i really don't know what i am supposed to do uh T.T

i really appreciate you guys!

Although i may not have been a good leader,

but with you guys around to support me,

i have become a stronger and confident leader.

really, thank you very, very, very much!

lastly, what i want to conclude is that,

I LOVE DRAMA! i am proud to be a member in our Drama Club family!(:

good luck to the rest of you,

and may we be blessed with flying colours for o' level results;D

with love,

Varina Lee Yi Ting[:

08'-09'DramaP

blelated photo post

2009-03-29T11:30:00.002+08:00

gah!
this is suposed to be a blelated photo post, but damn it!
i don't know whats wrong with my com and it just can upload anything.
connection is sucky today!

ohtian!
i haven't yet finish my homework nor study._.

those who wants the photo for e speech day tell me, i shall put it in a thumbdrive.

partly chipped off.

2009-03-27T23:14:00.003+08:00

how would you feel if you would lose another half that was very close to you,
whose blood flows within is the same as you?

i believe nobody wants to know that, agree?
although i haven't really experienced it, (hopefully & thankfully not)
i'm sure it really will be awfully awful. no, definately more than that.
the pain and loss may be so immense that it will be indescribable.

have you ever thought about a day when you will lose someone so dear to you?
some of us have never once thought about it before, others have, and there are even some who have lost some so dear to them w/o any preparations.
of course, there are also some who know that they are going to lose someone dear to them very soon, and may even tell when they might die.

the latest part suffers the most.

when you know that your loved one's life is going to reach an end very soon, all you can do is to do as much as possible to fulfill and realise their dreams. your help is often limited, and the thought of his/her death is approaching everyday, haunts you every second.
nothing much can be done to prevent from his/her death.
the emotional pain that you are going through might even be equivalant to his/her physical sufferings.

sigh. life, just can be so fragile.

today's post is not as random as the last two hudred over posts.
there is actually a connection to it, and i don't think anybody will know unless i reveal it.
nope, not that anyone close to me have left the earth to another planet either heaven or hell.
but there is just a connection to it.

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okaye haha, out from the depressing section, let's talk about today!
today's speech day cum school's official opening.
didn't take much photos, due to the limited memory available-.-
(as well as considering weather or not should i upload it to my com. i need a lappy!O.o)
will probably upload the photos tmr:D

hais.
sometimes, how i wished i were more thick-skinned like a cow's._.
i wonder how some girls can really really go about doing something something and something.
okay lah, not a bad thing, cuz what i mean here is more towards socialising.
ahahah.
how to stop being paiseh. somebody teach me please.. ._.
okay, forget about it.

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linking the day to another point,
i have been running away from Somebody very lately.
i think that Somebody knows too.
i'm so sad lah, suddenly feel so small beside Somebody.
i'm scared lah, i'm scared i will annoy Somebody and then Somebody will ditch me and runaway. but then Somebody will be more annoyed when Somebody knows that i'm running away from Somebody. and so i tried my best to attract myself back to Somebody and not to repel away from Somebody. But then attempts to do so kept failing.
i don't know how Somebody feels, but up till now, Somebody still seems 'okay' to me and appears unaffected. i hope so lah:/ anyway, Somebody is becoming hottter and hottter. i wonder if it is due to the 'raging hormones period' or what. Hahahah.

Abstract.

COUNT DOWN TO SYF:
3 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohmytian ohmytian!

oh man.
tmr i gonna wake up at 6.45 to prepare for Drama!!!!!!!!!!!!
tsk, i shold have went straight to bed just now lah. haiyo.